We move within squared and limited possibilities, we don’t jump, run, touch, roll, or simply raise our arms up, framing space and time for simple actions.
We walk on rubber soles and paved streets that properly isolate us from earth.
‘Memories are made of this…’
Reflections on grief, mourning, loss, memorials, the public and the private.
Research including personal reflections, cultural representations and experience, psychological, philosophical and scientific discourse.
A phone video of my brother Paul’s natural burial site at Gloucester cemetery. This song reminds me of him as it used to be played a lot on the radio when we were children and he really liked it. I thought that it fitted perfectly with the lovely spring day this year when I visited his grave with the cherry tree in front. This video will form part of a multi media installation/performance that is in the early stages of development.
As the family member designated to organise his funeral, I decided that the best option true to his gentle personality and anti capitalist views was to have a natural burial.
Please see the link below about natural burial at Gloucester Cemetery
Paul died two years ago at the age of 51 as a result of alcohol and drug abuse. I am of the belief that he never really got over my dad’s suicide 29 years ago and that his death was, in fact, a slow suicide.
I hadn’t seen Paul physically for two years before I found out that he had been taken into hospital in Cheltenham and that he only had about 24 hours to live. His mental health had deteriorated to the point where he wouldn’t visit any family members and he wouldn’t let anyone into his flat. Consequently after he died and when I was able to get into his flat it was a shock to see how he had been living. Some of the photos I will include in the installation were taken on my phone as I cleared the flat of his few belongings.
Some issues that I will be addressing in this project include
I will be posting further information and links about the project as it progresses.
With the ‘Kimberley’ film (created using mobile phone footage) I integrate aspects of my residency research film (see residencies below) with footage of Kimberley’s improvised movement material that was inspired by the conceptual ideas around the project and her own personal narrative. The film explores her personal relationship to space, how architecture and history contribute to both performer and audience behaviour/feelings and examines the politics of space: how space influences visibility and representation. Gaze is an important aspect of this project: what happens between the performers and between audience and performers? How does this affect perception of the performance process for both performer and audience member?
We filmed at The Southbank Centre two weeks before the Covid 19 lockdown (March 2020) but the video has been created (July 2020) through online collaboration between Kimberley (in London) and myself (in Nottingham). The Southbank Centre resonates with Kimberley as a place that, when she is not in lockdown, offers easy access with plenty of space for her to work with her laptop and people watch. She also has memories of performing with Candoco Dance Company there. To her it is like a second home.
The film is currently being exhibited in the ‘PERSONAL SPACE: PERFORMANCE ART OPEN EXHIBITION’ at Surface Gallery, Nottingham.
From exploratory residencies at Dance4 Nottingham and BACKLIT gallery July 2019.
The Covid 19 pandemic prevented me from moving on with my live performance project ‘Peer Pleasure’: I have therefore created a film to demonstrate ideas for future development from mobile phone footage that was only meant to be used as documentary footage of the early exploratory stages of the project. The film features a draft soundscape created by theatre maker, Daniel Ellis (adapted by myself) that uses text taken directly from political speeches, public information campaigns and commercial and cultural advertising/marketing. The music samples are : music listed by You Tube beneath the film, title theme from the film ‘Midnight Cowboy’ by John Barry and ‘Tango de Amor’ by Maciej Zielinski.
Performer/collaborators: Seraina Dejaco, Kimberley Harvey and Julie Moosburg.
We examined issues around propaganda, branding, and advertising and considered how much control we have over in our lives. The creative focus included solo and collective dance, pedestrian/ natural movement and choreographic exploration of the performer/collaborators’ narrative together with the incorporation of text generated from marketing/branding/advertising and the performers’ autobiography.
Examination of how visual and aural media infiltrate our consciousness was integral to the research process: mirrors were utilised as instruments of choreography, aesthetics and spectatorship, as a space to frame consciousness. Photo cut outs of the performers and an eclectic range of music also contributed to the research mix.
The residency was based on my previous academic and practical research relating to marketing/advertising, branding, the use of mirrors in visual arts (too many references to mention but including Dan Graham, Chantal Akerman, Francesca Woodman) and film/TV references (particularly ‘Midnight Cowboy’, the films of Ingrid Bergman), music relating to advertising, film and popular culture, ‘The Mirror’ poem by Sylvia Plath.
Further development will include the creation of films that explore each performer/collaborator’s relationship to space, the politics of space and how space influences visibility and representation. I will investigate how these films can be incorporated both into non performance installation contexts and into immersive performances. How does the space in which the work is presented affect both performer and audience?
All photo images credit: Rebecca Carter
Informal presentation: 13 August at 6.30pm
Initial research with artistic collaboration and performance by Miguel Pereira.
The residency focused on how our personal narratives are constructed and their relationship to the public persona and identity. How free are the choices we make about our lives? How are public and private identities interconnected? How do governments, organisations and corporations use their power exploit our need for emotional and psychological fulfilment and pleasure? Do we brand ourselves to hide our pain? How do we circumnavigate our way out of a life mapped out for us?
To what extent do social media platforms, political and social propaganda and commercial advertising affect the decisions we make about our lives? How do they affect the lives of others?
‘Only Fools and Horses’
“You must have spent a third of your life looking in mirrors. My earliest recollection of you is standing in front of a mirror. Up until I was four I thought you was twins” Rodney speaking to Del as he gets ready to go out on a date.
Book by Leo Herlihy
“Joe could not resist using the mirror in his own peculiar way. He walked away from it, prepared his expression, his attitude, then spun around to surprise his image.”
“It occurred to him that he was doing some thinking without the aid of a mirror and he wondered if it wasn’t some kind of improvement.”
Found someone had edited together all the mirror sequences of one of my favourite films with one of my favourite records.